You Act Like You Are 17 Years Old |
![]() You are a teenager at heart. You don't quite feel like a grown up yet, but you don't feel like a kid. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. You're quite rebellious, and you don't like being told what to do. You like to do things your way. You have your own unique style, taste in music, and outlook on life. |
Brevity or Stupidity.... fine line. Either way, I'll post =)
[02] Would you do meth if it was legalized?
No. Meth isn't a drug I enjoy or find much usefulness for...
[03] Abortion: for or against it?
Well, not exactly pro-abortion, but definitely pro-choice. To me, abortion is a huge decision and not one to be taken lightly, but still DEFINITELY one to be made WITHOUT government intervention.
[04] Do you think the world would fail with a female president?
I think this is a ridiculous question. I think whether the world "fails" or not depends on the quality of the person/people in charge... not which bathroom they use or what color their skin is.
[05] Do you believe in the death penalty?
Hmmm.... well, maybe. In very specific circumstances. Though, in general, I don't think it's necessary.
[06] Do you wish marijuana would be legalized already?
As a matter of fact, I do. I really do.
[07] Are you for or against premarital sex?
Oh, absolutely for it. I would never want to marry someone I didn't know if I was sexually compatible with. EGADS, what happens when you figure that out AFTER the fact? Besides, it's just so much FUN!!!
[08] Do you believe in God?
Which one? The Christian one?... nah. Doesn't work for me.
[09] Do you think same sex marriage should be legalized?
I think MARRIAGE should be illegal. And civil unions should be available for all who care to have them. Who anybody chooses to share their home, their finances and their lives with is none of the government's business.
[10] Do you think it's wrong that so many Hispanics are illegally moving to the USA?
Wrong? Like, what, go to hell wrong??? Hey, if you lived in Mexico, wouldn't YOU want to leave and go to a better place? Sure, I think it's better if it's done legally. Pay taxes, get a driver's license and insurance, but do I think it's WRONG? No. Hell, no. I'd want out of Mexico, too.
[11] A twelve year old girl has a baby, should she keep it?
Depends entirely upon the 12 year old, her maturity level, her support system and whether or not she has the capability of continuing to ready herself for the rest of her life (school, life skills, etc). I would say in general, a 12 year old is probably too immature and ill-equipped to deal with a child full time, but circumstances can always be unique.
[12] Should the alcohol age be lowered to eighteen?
Yes, and then eventually abolished. Here's an idea. Parents teaching their children to drink responsibly. Hmmm. Crazy, right?
[13] Should the war in Iraq be called off?
Yes.
[14] Assisted suicide is illegal: do you agree?
No. If a person wants to choose how and when and with how much dignity they are allowed to die, they should be able to do so.
[15] Do you believe in spanking your children?
In VERY rare cases. I think communication is better than a smack on the backside anytime, but sometimes, when they're just not listening, you HAVE to make them listen.
[16] Would you burn an American flag for a million dollars?
Yeah. What have we got, like a million of them?
[17] Who do you think would make a better president? McCain or Obama?
Obama
[18] Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers?
Afraid? No. Do I think it might happen? It's possible. But I would like to hope not =)
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Your result for Reincarnation Placement Exam...
Gypsy Camp
57% Intrigue, 39% Civilization, 84% Humanity, 67% Crowded, 24% Busy.

You sing! You dance! You flee from the authorities!
You were a bit difficult to place, because you like civilization and humanity -- but when it comes to work, you don't really fit into the system, the ruts and the rituals, that modern civilization embraces. You like your own ways... your old ways.
We've placed you among a hardy Gypsy family. They'll have you plucking a violin before you can talk, and dancing before you can walk. The road is your home, and your horses are members of your family. You get to wear lots of shiny things.
We expect that you'll have a good life. Even if your people are surrounded by a world where they don't really fit in, they have each other, an oasis of compatibility in an unbalanced world. We know you'll make the most of it!
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If you're on my friends list, I want to know things about you. I don't care if we never talk, if you're more of a lurker, or if we already know everything about each other.
BE HONEST! Answer the questions in a comment, then repost on your own journal if you like.
Are you currently in a serious relationship?
Yes. An open relationship with the love of my life. He is also my Dom and Daddy.
What was your dream growing up?
To be a fairy and run away with the unicorns and live in Never Never land with all of the chocolate I could eat.
What talent do you wish you had?
Athleticism. I wish I were athletic and graceful...
If I bought you a drink what would it be?
Long Island Iced Tea, baby!
Favorite vegetable?
Steamed asparagus. With butter.
What was the last book you read?
Eldest. (the second book in the Eragon series)
What zodiac sign are you?
Virgo with REALLY strong Libra tendencies. I was born on the cusp.
Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Explain where.
Two tattoos. A fairy on a daffodil on my left calf and a Moon Goddess on the back of my neck on the right side.
My ears are pierced a total of 5 times, my eyebrow and nose have been pierced in the past, but are currently non-functional.
Next weekend, at Pierce-A-Palooza I'm getting my nipples pierced and my eyebrow redone.
I can't wait!
Worst Habit?
Procrastination.
If you saw me walking down the street, would you offer me a ride?
Sure!
What is your favorite sport?
Swimming. It doesn't involve any projectiles and it's the only sport I've ever been any good at.
Do you have a pessimistic or optimistic attitude?
Well, it really depends on the situation... and my mood. I can be drastically BOTH.
What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me?
Sing songs. As many as we could think of...
Worst thing to ever happen to you?
I lost my true self to heavy drugs for about 10 years. I almost lost my chance with my true love...
Tell me one weird fact about you.
Hmmm... I don't know. They're all weird.
How about this... I was born bottom breach. Ass first. No kidding.
Do you have any pets?
I have two dogs. Sunny and Betty Boop. They're both female.
What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly?
I'd invite you in, offer you a drink and ask you to join us for dinner =)
What was your first impression of me?
Very bubbly and friendly. Love your red hair...
Do you think clowns are cute or scary?
Neither.
If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be?
I would make my boobs perky.
Would you be my crime partner or my conscience?
Oh, definitely your partner in crime...muah ha ha ha
What color eyes do you have?
Grey
Ever been arrested?
Yes. More than once. For unpaid traffic tickets. Blech!
White or red wine?
Red. Merlot.
If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it?
Put a down payment on a house. Or fix up my RV and do some traveling. It's a toss-up.
What's your favorite place to hang at?
The Ole Memorial Lounge... singing karaoke and sipping Long Island Tea.
Do you believe in ghosts?
Yes. Without a doubt.
Favorite thing to do in your spare time?
Crafting.
Do you swear a lot?
Yes, Goddammit. A whole fucking lot.
Biggest pet peeve?
People who wake up perky.
In one word, how would you describe yourself?
Eclectic.
Do you believe/appreciate romance?
Absolutely. It's one of life's finer things.
Do you believe in God?
Which one?
Will you repost this so I can fill it out and do the same for you?
Yes. Please do.
1. Bar-B-Que Ribs.
I am a Kansas City girl and I LOVES me some BBQ ribs. Today, we went to take Erus' daughter to see her grandmother, Erus' Mom. She smoked some pork ribs and they were YUMMY. Almost as good as the ones at Stone Mill. Which is my favorite local BBQ joint. Mmm Mmm.... Good!
2. Renaissance Festivals.
Pirates and Wenches. Men in tights and kilts. Lots of cleavage. Ale and Meade.
Enough said.
3. Hats
An article of clothing you can find to fit no matter the size of your ass. I have a massive hat collection.
And they're just so COOL!
4. Road Trips
I love taking road trips. Sure, you can fly anywhere you want to go, but you'd miss the fun of the pieces in between. All the truck stops with their bizarre retail offerings and weird fried food. The World's Biggest Ball of String. The Russell Stover Museum of Chocolate - complete with a gift shop that offers Chocolate Dyed T-Shirts 3 for $10.
Yeah, Road Trips ROCK!
5. Willy Wonka
The candy, not the movie. Although I like the movie, too. Both versions. Erus makes fun of me because I like candy so much and because the Willy Wonka kind is my favorite. Especially Runts, Nerds and Laffy Taffy. WITH the lame jokes on the wrapper.
It makes me happy.
So, there you have it. 5 things I like. Hope you enjoyed!
My whole world is cock-eyed today.
I'm supposed to be writing a blog entry about my trip to Submissive Journey Weekend, but I just can't get it out. I don't have the words to describe what happened to me there. My writer's block is infuriating. Can't say what I want to say the way I want to say it.
And then there's today. I'm in a terrible mood. I'm cranky. I'm short tempered and I keep taking things personally that probably aren't.
Maybe I need a nap. Or maybe I'm hormonal. Maybe my blood sugar is off.
Maybe not.
Maybe I'm just having one of those days.
Sigh...
I've already snapped at Erus... even cursing at him. I keep feeling like he's not hearing my words, but admittedly, my words aren't coming very easily right now. They feel hateful and rude, so I'm mostly keeping them to myself. Which tends to cause me to act out in other ways. I'm not good at biting my tongue. So when I do, I can get a little forceful with my actions.
Erus noticed my actions and asked me what was wrong. I told him that I'm feeling neglected today. Told him that I felt like things were good for the first few days after I got back from my trips... felt important, loved and cherished. Now, it seems it's all running cold again. Already. I'm not ready for that feeling of euphoria I experienced when I first got home to go away yet.
I'm starting in the middle. Let me back up a bit.
I went to a wonderful retreat in the mountains of Tennessee with a small (40-ish) group of submissives. I found some wonderful truths about myself. I accepted some things, began to understand some things and was feeling very much in acceptance of my relationship with Erus.
I realized that:
1. I am not (the adjective) submissive. I am a (noun) submissive. I CHOOSE to submit to one man and one man only. (That's Erus) I chose it because he's the only man I've ever known who was worthy of it. His word is good, his actions are kind and motivated by making sure I am taken care of no matter what. He is the best man I have ever known.
2. It's OK and even human to feel resentment sometimes. It's OK to question and need to understand. I don't have to accept everything Erus tells me blindly. Questioning is part of my nature and the need to understand comes from a childhood spent not understanding anything that was happening to me... and not having anyone to talk to about it.
3. My brand of D/s is just that. It's MINE. It doesn't have to work for anyone else (well, me and Erus) but me. However we choose to define and/or practice our D/s is just as valid as anyone else's choices regardless of their opinions or anyone else's standards. (This was a big one for me)
So, I came back feeling balanced, aware and validated.
Bonus that when I returned, Erus had come to some conclusions of his own. He was finding his connection with his strength and with the execution of his domination. It was all good. In fact, it was GREAT. We were connecting on a level we haven't connected on in a while.
So, why is it that level of connection can't be maintained? Where do we lose our way?
OK, today (and probably the last couple of days), I haven't been feeling myself. I've been short tempered, I've had no patience (as opposed to the very little I usually have)... Erus had suggested that maybe it was something akin to sub-drop. Hard core sub-drop.
Hell, I spent almost a week working my ass of in the kitchen of a camping festival... I was so physically exhausted that when I got home I could barely find the time to get ready for the trip to Tennessee in between sleeping to catch up. Then I went to Tennessee. A long car trip with several people, lots of site seeing and then the gathering... with incredible amounts of energy expenditure. Another grueling car trip home, a scene with Erus, then a VERY emotional Mother's Day. Now I'm getting ready to vend at a local street arts festival this weekend. I've been burning the candle at both ends.
It's no wonder I'm not feeling like myself.
Suddenly, my words have run out again.
I really just don't know what to say.
Fumbling for reason,
~blaze!~
"I want you to write about the D/s elements that exist in our current relationship and how you relate to them."
These are the words Erus spoke to me about the new blog entry that is my assignment. He wants me to blog... regularly... at least once a week, he said. I told him I was experiencing some writer's block and needed some direction so, he gave me a topic. I think it's a good topic. In the midst of everything we are struggling with, I think it's a wonderful idea to "take inventory" and realize what we already have going for us.
Now, the actual writing of this blog has proved to be more problematic than I originally thought. I really do have writer's block. I think some part of me is afraid to put all of this out to the universe again. Somehow, in my mind, if I keep it all to myself (or share only with Erus), then maybe the fates won't catch on and throw me for another loop. Maybe I can sneak by under the radar, you know? Well, regardless, I spent days working on this blog entry. It feels disjointed and not very clear to me, but it's done.
The funny thing? I was punished this morning for not having posted my blog entry yet this week (the assignment was given to me on Monday), but as I look at what I already have written, it's pretty much already done. Erus said that it was better to turn in an incomplete assignment, than not to turn one in at all... if I had a dollar for every time I got in trouble for that very thing when I was a kid... my parents were such perfectionists that if I did something less than what they thought I was capable of doing, there was big trouble. So, the perfectionism rubbed off on me... if I can't do something to the best of my ability, I have a tendency to just not do it at all (probably the root of my terrible powers of procrastination). Anyway, it was hard... and it's not my best... and to find a voice to write it in, I wrote it to Erus, so bear with me....
"I want you to write about the D/s elements that exist in our current relationship and how you relate to them."
Well, here goes...
1. In the bedroom
The place that I feel most submissive, most of the time is in bedroom. Specifically during sex. Our sex is never what one would call "vanilla". It ALWAYS has elements of D/s in it. Your power over me is HOT, it turns me on... and this is place I find it easiest to relinquish control.
2. In the household (budget, household duties, no job, cooking and serving)
I am primary caretaker of the house and our physical selves. I provide all of the services that are required for us to live a happy, healthy life together. I cook, clean, do the laundry, the shopping, the meal planning and scheduling. All with your approval, of course. I have recently taken to not only cooking meals, but serving them as well. I take pride in bringing you a plate of yummy, healthy food and seeing the look of satisfaction on your face.
3. Kaylee
I can't ever remember NOT wanting to be a Mom. Unfortunately (or maybe fortunately, what the hell do I know, anyway), the fates did not see fit to give me a child of my own. Maybe I'm still too much of a child myself. Regardless, when the fates saw fit to reunite me with you, my lost love, they also saw fit to bless me with your daughter. I have enjoyed getting to know and love her over the past couple of years and she has become an irreplaceable piece of my heart. What I didn't count on, was the struggle... it was hard for her to adjust (still is sometimes) to not having Mommy and Daddy together. And my being the new part of the equation just made me the logical person for her to blame. I struggled with trying to make her behave.... I struggled with letting you deal with her (or not) as you see fit... I had some real control issues... because I felt so OUT of control in regards to her not accepting me. It finally came clear one weekend when I wasn't even thinking about it. I had simply come to the place of acceptance. I couldn't change the way she treated me... I couldn't change the fact that she didn't like me very well.... all I could change was the way I reacted to it. She's a small child, for crying out loud... I'm the adult here. So, I choose to be as nice I could... and to try and make our time together as fun as possible. This, to me, has become merely another form of service to you. If I can make your daughter happy, then by proxy, I can make you happy, too.
So, there it is. It was a good exercise. It helped me to realize that there really are every day D/s elements in our lives that I wasn't regularly recognizing.
Yeah, sometimes it's good to take inventory...
TTFN,
~blaze!~





